It has been 10 months since my last update and I have been through a lot over the past months. Life is never easy, I must say, but however difficult life may seem to be, one will be able to overcome the challenges as time passes, just like how I did.
Drowned in tears and buried in regrets, I have lost a soulmate, a best friend of mine. I did not realize how insignificant my existence was and how weak our friendship was to fall apart just because he has found the love of his life. All of a sudden, I was completely blocked out of his life without any explanation. I was left in the dark, and it broke me down. For over a month, I was crying my heart out every time I was reminded how close we used to be. Even at this moment, this paragraph had me choked up. But when I think about all the bad things he did to me, my sorrows and regrets are halved. Slowly (but rather quick), we turned into total stranger and I bet that we will never contact each other again.
Traumatized, from an accident, a car collision. I was heading back after classes when the front car hit the brake and stopped unexpectedly. I slammed on the brake, causing my car to skid to the front. Before I knew it, it was already too late. My body temperature dropped but I remained calm, or at least I seemed so. Blinker light turned on, moved to the roadside. The driver, which later I got to know that he was the chauffeur of some westerner with power, was good enough to tell me to capture his license and road tax. We came to an agreement to make police report on this matter and I continued on my journey, and that is when the aftermath hit me. I burst into tears the moment I reached home, I needed some consolation but all my father did was blame me for my fault. Later on, he was amazed, or rather dumbfounded, by how my car was perfectly fine when I damaged the other car's boot lid.
Twenty-one, a step towards adulthood. It was finally time for our thesis and our interviews. The journey of preparing my final year report went smoothly, until the day of presentation where I had to face my scary moderator. It has been such a long time since I trembled so much during my presentation. My confidence level dropped in the presence of the moderator and it does not went as well as my past presentations. I was not satisfied with my performance but thankfully, the result turned out good. Moving on to prepare for my industrial training, I heard that it was hard to apply for internship so I sent my curriculum vitae to quite a number of companies. I thought that it was a good move until all of them contacted me for interviews. I went to a few and I must say that, interviewing for IT job positions is no joke. I had to sit for tests for almost all of the interviews and it was really stressful. I then had a hard time contemplating and choosing the right company for my internship. However, I was able to gain new experience even though it was a difficult journey.
Ever since my college friends moved out of the university college's hostel, I became a regular at PV16 to the point that the guards can recognize me. Whenever there's free time, I would always visit their units to spend quality time with them. It was the place where we would gather, cook dinner, play games, chill and share deep thoughts. I have spent countless nights for assignments, for outings, for no reason at all. Tons of memories have created and that is why it was hard to leave the place when it was time for us to bid goodbye and step into the society. Once again, I cried, because I missed them even when they were right in front of me, because I knew that we will not be able to meet as often as we did, because of everything that we have gone through together, because things will never be the same again. I am grateful to have met these people and I love them so much.
That has been the story of my life thus far. Life may have been tough, but I've been learning and growing through the challenges while overcoming them. Without going through the hard times, I will never realize how strong I am.
