With the completion of convocation, we have stepped into the next chapter of our lives as diploma graduates. Despite the hardships along the journey, I was awarded the Book Prize with a CGPA of 3.9725. I thought life being a pre-graduate would be similar, but little did I know that I will be welcomed by twofold of stress and friendships that grow apart.

As I age, I have come to realize that "fragile" is the only word to describe relationship. It was naive of me to think that all friendships would last long if we remain by the side of one another. Sometimes, what we get in return of sincerity might be a mixed feeling of confuse and sadness as well as an unappreciative distance. Being sensitive or not, "What have I done to deserve the cold treatment?" was all I can think of. However, as time passes, I have decided to go with the flow and leave it to God. If it is meant to be mine, it will return, if it does not, then it was never mine to begin with. I have confronted and did everything possible to mend it and I believe that I will be left with no regrets even if it hurts.

Being 20, loneliness is what occupied the largest part of my daily life. It never came across my mind that I will still face this problem in my adulthood. If you ask for the definition of loneliness, I will say that loneliness is not being alone but the feeling that no one cares. There is no one for you to share happiness, no one to comfort you, and that is how pathetic your life is.

As we are now a step closer to the society, I begin to fear the working world. Not because of my lack of working experience, but the complicated and avaricious nature of the world. They described the world out there to be a battlefield, but have materialistic really overshadowed sincerity? 

Growing old is inevitable, but I believe that growing up and growing apart are optional. We will see how it goes.